The run up to my birthday this year has brought on some serious self reflection. I am about to become 37. Another three years and I will be 40. I never thought my age would bother me, but I have come to the realisation that somewhere, in the back of my mind, 40 is my adult number. The age at which I am to have it altogether, to have achieved my success, whatever that would look like. When I realised I had three more years to reach this age, I started to realise that maybe, just maybe, I won’t live forever. I started to see my life as a timeline. Going back to the beginning and reliving moments, reliving times when I was just existing, relaxing, playing. Reliving times when I limited myself, not realising my right to be here, my right to be happy in my own way. Living a life of people pleasing and thinking that other people knew more than me and I was obligated to listen to their advice more than my own.
My exact thought was, shouldn’t I be well on my way to my own Happily Ever After by now? Shouldn’t I be sorted? We live a life of expecting this state of being sorted – knowing who we are, the perfect relationship, career, family, home, so that we don’t have to worry about it anymore. A stage of stasis, It is perpetuated by children’s fairy tales, by the movies, and cartoons. Happily Ever After, and that is where the story ends.
What happened to Snow White, Sleeping Beauty – after the wedding? After the story ends? Is that the end of their yearning? Their sole purpose in life?
You might think I’m being cynical, but in this earthly life, in our time here, there is no happy ever after. There might be happier ever after, or pretending to be happy after after. But things don’t just stop once you find the perfect career, the perfect home, the perfect family, friends or social status. Well, – correction, for some people it does stop there, but not just because of some unforeseen illness or sudden death, but because they hold on to that space in time in a death grip that prevents them from growing and learning.
The truth is, Sleeping Beauty, five years into her relationship with the prince, probably discovered that her relationship needed work and went into journalling to or therapy, in order to learn how to communicate with him better. I mean, after sleeping all of those years, one would think that she needed space to find herself, to find out who she really is, and what she wants to do with her life. The prince may have though, goodness, who is this person that I woke up with a kiss? I love her dearly but I do long for another adventure – I want to rescue someone. You see?
The truth is, we are here to evolve and learn throughout our lives. Yes it feels great to reach a goal. Yes it feels great to reach a clearer understanding of yourself and life so far. But no, it doesn’t you mean you should risk changing everything you have accomplished for the chance of something that could be even more fulfilling for you. That you shouldn’t leave your place and level of learning, you shouldn’t challenge your outlook and ideals of life again. Life without change, life without growth, is stagnation. Is death. Slow, painful, soul – destroying death.
As we learn, as we grow, we change. We understand ourselves better. We get Divine guidance to work on new projects, meet new people. These yearnings, though they might feel scary, should be tested out and considered, not just ignored so we can stay in our comfort zone.
Please always stay open and listen to those beautiful inner whisperings, calling you to learn something new. Some new skill, some different way of being or a new healthier habit. Be open to the new friends that come your way, the new experiences and opportunities that the universe brings to you. If you listen to your inner voice, and check it with common sense and a good plan, setting your intention and taking daily action, you will be living a life, not just existing one.
So, why don’t you write a list of all of the ideas and thoughts of your inner whisperings? Write a journal, draw pictures or talk to a trusted friend about the new things you are learning about yourself, and choose which actions you feel would be the best to take on next.
Love and Blessings,